I have spent the last several months longing for that "feeling" of God's presence in my life...Do I know He is there? Yes. Do I know I am His? Yes. Do I know that He loves me? Yes. Do I know He has a plan for me? Yes. So, why desire for the "feeling" of things I am already confident of? There is nothing wrong in praying for an overwhelming presence of God in our lives...I'm going to keep praying for it...But, I can't allow "feelings" to conclude my beliefs. Wouldn't it be nice if you could see your prayers float up to Heaven? You see Jesus catch them and hand them over to His Father...Wouldn't it be easier waiting for the answers to our prayers if we could see that they reached Him? I know that sometimes I feel like my prayers don't even leave the room...they hit the ceiling and bounce right back down to me and I am left "feeling" like maybe all I did was talk to myself for the last couple of minutes. This makes me wish I had a higher ceiling!
Having a relationship with God is so much more than being on a spiritual high 100% of the time...It is definitely more than feeling powerless and empty. Having a relationship with God is about balance. I don't need to search for oneness with God...I already have it...that is a promise to us as believers...Christ dwells in us!! "But ye are not in the flesh, but in the Spirit, if so be that the Spirit of God dwell in you. Now if any man have not the Spirit of Christ, he is none of his." Romans 8:9
It doesn't matter how high or low the ceiling...He has made His home in us...He is in the room within earshot of our every need!