So, a reply to this post led to this post; and a reply to that post has led to this post...Following me? My MIL gave me permission to share part of an email that she wrote to me...you may want to read the previous blog posts first...
"A comment about healing wounds leaving a scar. When I was 12, I was burned very badly on my lower arms. They were a mess. And well, mother didn't take me to the doctor and they became much worse. To go on, my Grannie Fran came out from California to visit with us. She lovingly and with much patience cleaned my burns and "doctored" them every day for over six weeks. The wounds began to heal and at the time, there were awful scars. A firey red in color and then over the months, as she continued have me apply a cream, the scars were better. Not so ugly and they didn't hurt as much. Now, a life time later, there are still a few scars. But you know, when I notice them, I don't so much remember the pain I was in but the love that I received from my grandmother. So the scars are a reminder of that. Her love. And well, I'm glad I have the reminder."
What a beautiful picture and reminder of the loving care that Our Father offers to us when we feel wounded through life's trials!
Losing Zachary will always hurt to a degree...and yes, it's painful...but the wounds have healed...they have been cared for by the One who knows the pain too well. He has given the soul healing and restoration.
And now, when I see the scars, they are a reminder of that. His love. And well, I'm glad I have that reminder.
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Sunday, May 10, 2009
proud
There are several times in everyone's life when they will feel a sense of pride...not the boastful kind of pride, but the loving kind of pride....
I don't know if I'm just feeling sentimental lately or what, but let me share some things that have made me feel proud...
First of all, I'm proud of my sister.... My sister has always had a strong personality...Not only in the sense that she has a high threshold for pain, but also in her initiative and independence....she also has some strong-willed characteristics :) Nothing she has ever done has made me more proud of her as watching her bring Jayden into the world... All of our moms deserve respect for that :) She gathered strength from the very depth of her love for her son... Seriously. The whole process of childbirth seems unnatural even though it's the most natural thing in the world... Anyways, back on subject... Not only that, but now I get to see her care for him and love him. What an honor to see my little sister grow up and start her own family.
Second of all, I'm proud of my whole family... We travel in a group. We linger. We get separation anxiety :) It takes us too long to say goodbye to each other...and even if you do say goodbye, it doesn't mean you are leaving because you can easily get sucked back into another conversation. We are each other's entourage....We are each other's posse... There are few familes that would sit in a waiting room for over 24 hrs....but mine would. There are few parents who would sacrifice anything to meet the needs of their children...but mine would. There are few who have a brother so kind and gentle but also ready to kick anyone's butt if they ever really hurt you....but mine would. I love my family; and I'm proud to be part of it.
Third, I'm proud of my son and all of the lessons I've learned because of him. I miss him a lot today, but I know that he's in Heaven busy being perfect and sportin' a pretty cool crown...
I don't know if I'm just feeling sentimental lately or what, but let me share some things that have made me feel proud...
First of all, I'm proud of my sister.... My sister has always had a strong personality...Not only in the sense that she has a high threshold for pain, but also in her initiative and independence....she also has some strong-willed characteristics :) Nothing she has ever done has made me more proud of her as watching her bring Jayden into the world... All of our moms deserve respect for that :) She gathered strength from the very depth of her love for her son... Seriously. The whole process of childbirth seems unnatural even though it's the most natural thing in the world... Anyways, back on subject... Not only that, but now I get to see her care for him and love him. What an honor to see my little sister grow up and start her own family.
Second of all, I'm proud of my whole family... We travel in a group. We linger. We get separation anxiety :) It takes us too long to say goodbye to each other...and even if you do say goodbye, it doesn't mean you are leaving because you can easily get sucked back into another conversation. We are each other's entourage....We are each other's posse... There are few familes that would sit in a waiting room for over 24 hrs....but mine would. There are few parents who would sacrifice anything to meet the needs of their children...but mine would. There are few who have a brother so kind and gentle but also ready to kick anyone's butt if they ever really hurt you....but mine would. I love my family; and I'm proud to be part of it.
Third, I'm proud of my son and all of the lessons I've learned because of him. I miss him a lot today, but I know that he's in Heaven busy being perfect and sportin' a pretty cool crown...
what a little model!
Here's a sneak peek of Jayden's first professional photo shoot...the rest will be coming soon...
Shout out to Shari who took these awesome pictures!! Head over to her website and check out her talent.... www.imagesbyshari.info
Saturday, May 9, 2009
delight
I've been thinking today about the verse in the bible that says, "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart".....What do you think this verse means?
Right now, I'm waiting on God for a couple of BIG things that I don't really want to get into right now on the internet. I feel like I "delight in the Lord" and He knows the "desires of my heart" so what's the hold up? I can't help but wonder, "Why am I still waiting?"
It's times like this that I have to remember that God's perfect timing is far greater than mine...I actually prefer His timing above my own....But does God refrain from giving you what you want in order to "teach" you or "mold" you? I think so....
Also, I was talking to a friend about this....I was only slightly frustrated at the time and I asked "How much more does He want me to learn?!! I feel like I already learned a lot!"....Her reply was simple but struck a chord in me...."Maybe He's teaching someone else through you". I'm gonna have to be ok with that...once you surrender yourself to what God wants to use you for, you become His instrument to be used how He wants to, when He wants to...
So, while I'm waiting...what is God doing? I don't think He is up there twiddling His thumbs or sitting on His hands.....and I don't think He's holding out on me....I think He's preparing something great!! And I think when it is revealed, all of us will step back and say, "Wow, look at how AWESOME God is!"
So, while I'm waiting....What will I be doing? the song tells it all....
Right now, I'm waiting on God for a couple of BIG things that I don't really want to get into right now on the internet. I feel like I "delight in the Lord" and He knows the "desires of my heart" so what's the hold up? I can't help but wonder, "Why am I still waiting?"
It's times like this that I have to remember that God's perfect timing is far greater than mine...I actually prefer His timing above my own....But does God refrain from giving you what you want in order to "teach" you or "mold" you? I think so....
Also, I was talking to a friend about this....I was only slightly frustrated at the time and I asked "How much more does He want me to learn?!! I feel like I already learned a lot!"....Her reply was simple but struck a chord in me...."Maybe He's teaching someone else through you". I'm gonna have to be ok with that...once you surrender yourself to what God wants to use you for, you become His instrument to be used how He wants to, when He wants to...
So, while I'm waiting...what is God doing? I don't think He is up there twiddling His thumbs or sitting on His hands.....and I don't think He's holding out on me....I think He's preparing something great!! And I think when it is revealed, all of us will step back and say, "Wow, look at how AWESOME God is!"
So, while I'm waiting....What will I be doing? the song tells it all....
Thursday, May 7, 2009
jayden....duh, what else would i blog about?!
Tuesday, I signed the back of my paycheck and started writing "Jayden" instead of "Jaclyn"....guess you could figure what I'm thinking about....constantly...
Have you noticed the similarities between my name and his? Maybe he was subconsciously named after me!!?
If Jayden's name was spelled J-a-d-y-n it would look a lot more like my name because my "c" and "l" would fuse together and make a "d" :) We should look into getting it changed legally.
I told my Dad that Jayden was named after me and he replied, "His initials are J.C...he was named after Jesus"...haha
I'm not gonna clean my room until the next time I have a baby...everyone is cleaning Jill's house, organizing, buying groceries, bringing over dinner....this is the life...her house is now cleaner than mine and she has way more food...
Here's a list of things that I love about Jayden so far:
1. his nose
2. his chin
3. his lips
4. his eyes closed
5. his eyes open
6. his fuzzy head
7. his left ear
8. his right ear (they look diffferent)
9. his tongue
10. the way his mouth looks so clean
11. the way he yawns
12. his little neck
13. the way his chest inflates when he breathes
14. the way you can feel his breath on you when you are near his face
15. his back
16. his bum
17. his little diapers
18. his little clothes
19. the shape of his head
20. his new baby smell
21. his toes 1-10
22. his fingers 1-10
23. how he squirms while he sleeps
24. how he puckers his lips
25. how he makes Jill and Eric so happy
It's so easy to love him.
Have you noticed the similarities between my name and his? Maybe he was subconsciously named after me!!?
If Jayden's name was spelled J-a-d-y-n it would look a lot more like my name because my "c" and "l" would fuse together and make a "d" :) We should look into getting it changed legally.
I told my Dad that Jayden was named after me and he replied, "His initials are J.C...he was named after Jesus"...haha
I'm not gonna clean my room until the next time I have a baby...everyone is cleaning Jill's house, organizing, buying groceries, bringing over dinner....this is the life...her house is now cleaner than mine and she has way more food...
Here's a list of things that I love about Jayden so far:
1. his nose
2. his chin
3. his lips
4. his eyes closed
5. his eyes open
6. his fuzzy head
7. his left ear
8. his right ear (they look diffferent)
9. his tongue
10. the way his mouth looks so clean
11. the way he yawns
12. his little neck
13. the way his chest inflates when he breathes
14. the way you can feel his breath on you when you are near his face
15. his back
16. his bum
17. his little diapers
18. his little clothes
19. the shape of his head
20. his new baby smell
21. his toes 1-10
22. his fingers 1-10
23. how he squirms while he sleeps
24. how he puckers his lips
25. how he makes Jill and Eric so happy
It's so easy to love him.
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Jayden week continues
This is a poem I wrote for my sister and read at her baby shower....Her bridal shower was a fairytale theme so there's a little bit of that in here to make it seem like the sequel....I also read a poem at her bridal shower...
Anyways, Here it is....
As young children, I think that most would agree
Our favorite place was reading stories up on Mommy's knee
We've heard of the beanstalk and the three little pigs,
Hansel and Gretel and the wolf, bad and big
But maybe someday, when baby is grown,
He'll ask you the story of how he became your own...
It all began way back when Mike and Cheryl said "I Do"
And let's not forget Gloria and Camille who shared their vows too
Relationships continued and love did abound
And several years later discoveries were found
Mike and Cheryl had Jill
Gloria and Camille had Eric
Little did they know, they started a love lyric.
Eric and Jill finally met. God's plan was clear.
Jill's Prince Charming was finally here!
They had a fairytale wedding-Jill looked like Cinderella!
(Even Eric kinda looked like a handsome young fella')
Often times in a book, the story ends there
But "Happily Ever After" is no where near
There's more to the story. There's more to be told.
It's the story of the arrival of a baby to hold.
Just a short time later, there was a stirring inside.
The baby was so small but LIFE could not be denied!
Little Baby was there just the size of a bean
The love of a mom was easily seen
Headaches, Nausea, Cravings and all
It wasn't long 'til that belly wasn't so small!
Around the 18th week, there was news to enjoy
All the parts were present to make a baby a BOY!!
It's a boy! It's a boy! We can't wait to meet
Little Jayden St. Onge and his cute, little feet!
The next months were filled with such anticipation
As we all looked ahead with great expectations
Our new roles as Auntie, Grandma and Mom
Bring great responsibility to keep Jayden from harm
To love him the most with kisses and hugs
To showcase his face in frames, calendars and mugs
To kiss boo-boos on fingers and bandage his knees
To make sure he eats all of his carrots and peas
To train him up in the way he should go
And be a good example so in Christ he will grow
It won't be long now 'til we finally see
The perfect addition to our family
Being a mom is a calling- the highest there is
And Jayden is so blessed that you are his
Enjoy the gift he has already been
And when he arrives- oh, the hearts he will win!
God gave you a miracle-a gift from above
And now we have Jayden all because two fell in love.
The End....or just the beginning...
Anyways, Here it is....
As young children, I think that most would agree
Our favorite place was reading stories up on Mommy's knee
We've heard of the beanstalk and the three little pigs,
Hansel and Gretel and the wolf, bad and big
But maybe someday, when baby is grown,
He'll ask you the story of how he became your own...
It all began way back when Mike and Cheryl said "I Do"
And let's not forget Gloria and Camille who shared their vows too
Relationships continued and love did abound
And several years later discoveries were found
Mike and Cheryl had Jill
Gloria and Camille had Eric
Little did they know, they started a love lyric.
Eric and Jill finally met. God's plan was clear.
Jill's Prince Charming was finally here!
They had a fairytale wedding-Jill looked like Cinderella!
(Even Eric kinda looked like a handsome young fella')
Often times in a book, the story ends there
But "Happily Ever After" is no where near
There's more to the story. There's more to be told.
It's the story of the arrival of a baby to hold.
Just a short time later, there was a stirring inside.
The baby was so small but LIFE could not be denied!
Little Baby was there just the size of a bean
The love of a mom was easily seen
Headaches, Nausea, Cravings and all
It wasn't long 'til that belly wasn't so small!
Around the 18th week, there was news to enjoy
All the parts were present to make a baby a BOY!!
It's a boy! It's a boy! We can't wait to meet
Little Jayden St. Onge and his cute, little feet!
The next months were filled with such anticipation
As we all looked ahead with great expectations
Our new roles as Auntie, Grandma and Mom
Bring great responsibility to keep Jayden from harm
To love him the most with kisses and hugs
To showcase his face in frames, calendars and mugs
To kiss boo-boos on fingers and bandage his knees
To make sure he eats all of his carrots and peas
To train him up in the way he should go
And be a good example so in Christ he will grow
It won't be long now 'til we finally see
The perfect addition to our family
Being a mom is a calling- the highest there is
And Jayden is so blessed that you are his
Enjoy the gift he has already been
And when he arrives- oh, the hearts he will win!
God gave you a miracle-a gift from above
And now we have Jayden all because two fell in love.
The End....or just the beginning...
Monday, May 4, 2009
Jayden is Here!!!
Jayden arrived at 2:41 this morning, May 4, 2009!!! He is 6 pounds even and 20 inches long...He is a seriously handsome, little guy!!
I think it's going to be difficult to spoil him the most...a lot of people already love him!
Especially these guys :)
See what I mean?
I think it's going to be difficult to spoil him the most...a lot of people already love him!
Especially these guys :)Congratulations to Jill and Eric!!
I was very excited to get the call on Sunday morning from Jill telling me that I could come in the Labor Delivery Room...I was beyond honored and excited!!! I'm so impressed with Jill's strength and endurance...If you ever get the opportunity to get in that room, DO IT! It's not only educational, but also incredibly awesome to witness that kind of miracle!!!!
Jayden, you rock and I love you! Happy Birthday!
Jayden, you rock and I love you! Happy Birthday!
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Jayden is Coming!!!!!!!
I'm very pleased to announce that Jayden Christopher St. Onge, my handsome nephew, is on his way!!
I'm thinking about declaring this week "Jayden Week" so that I can share all the fun Aunt things I'm learning...so stay tuned! There's plenty of cute pictures coming soon!
Check out this funny video of my sister!! We were cracking up!!! The nurse was trying to get the contractions started back up and it worked!
More pictures when he arrives later tonight!!
I'm thinking about declaring this week "Jayden Week" so that I can share all the fun Aunt things I'm learning...so stay tuned! There's plenty of cute pictures coming soon!
Check out this funny video of my sister!! We were cracking up!!! The nurse was trying to get the contractions started back up and it worked!
More pictures when he arrives later tonight!!
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