waiting for the harvest

a facebook friend of mine posted this status and i am in love with it...

‎"God will never send us into the valley and ask us to bow to His authority there without sooner or later bringing a harvest from the ground watered by our sweat and tears." ~Beth Moore

i've been in a valley for the last 3 years it seems and this quote is just a sweet reminder that there's a purpose for it!

being in a valley...
1. makes you recognize the mountain

2. humbles you, placing you in your proper place under God's authority

3. exhausts you, but worth the view from the mountaintop

4. brings God so near to us...near enough to capture those tears in a bottle.

5. reaps a harvest!!!!

God loves us so much and His plans are perfect!

...and I'll just keep waiting, waiting, waiting for the harvest...
BUT, i should keep my eyes open because the "fruit" might not look like how i expect...
God's plan might not be the same as my plan, but I'm confident that no matter what...
there will be fruit.

nothing is wasted.

it's no surprise that the recent prayers for our baby have increased....or that the recent heaviness on my heart has coincided with the baby boom among my friends and zachary's anniversary of life.

plain and simple: i just really want a baby.

as if you didn't already know that.

there's something about the chaos that a newborn brings that seems so enticing.

i want all of it.

i'm incredibly happy for my friends. i love them...and i love their kiddos. but, fear creaps up and speaks words of doubt to me...doubt that i'll ever have my own to hold...doubt that i'll ever be able to have playdates...

doubt. it stinks.

enough said about that.

sometimes, a "congratulations" is painfully similar to an admission of the things i don't have...and it's painful to admit you want "more" out of your life (if that makes sense.)

the overwhelming positive i find is that God uses everything.

literally, nothing is wasted...

i love that.

Zachary's Feet

You may have noticed that i added a picture of Zachary's feet in my sidebar. They are actual size on my computer...if they are just under 2 inches, they are actual size on yours.

It's pretty unbelievable that someone that small could be so complete.

"...fearfully and wonderfully made..." indeed!