eye contact

maybe you've seen a mom do this before...it's likely that it's been done to you or that you've done it to your child....

the child is just misbehaving and not listening at all...or maybe the child is just restless and not paying full attention...but the mom will grab hold of the child's face with both hands, get some eye contact and repeat her orders.

it seems to work.

there are things in life that happen and it causes me to wonder if God is trying to get my attention or trying to get me to refocus.

is He holding my face and looking for eye contact?

it's true even in the case of Peter. Jesus was off praying alone and the boat went afar off into the water by the time He was done. He walked on the water towards the boat and the fisherman that knew Jesus became scared thinking that it was a ghost! the men KNEW Jesus personally and in some strange way, didn't recognize Him and didn't recognize His power. so Peter said, "if that's You, then command me to come to You on the water". Jesus replied, "come". so Peter got out of the boat and began walking towards Jesus. He was walking on water! Obviously, this is something supernatural that took place, but even in that moment when Peter was experiencing the power of God, he got distracted and focused on the wind and the crashing waves. the fear and circumstances of his experience began to trump the faith he had in the One that gave him the power to pass over the water without sinking!

let it not be said of me!

Peter cried out to Him and immediately Jesus reached out His hand.

all Peter needed was a little eye contact.

my goal is for others to witness me walking on water,

and just like the fisherman watching from the boat, they'll say...

"Truly, You are the Son of God"

this blog.

i was talking with a friend today about different themes that people stick to while in blogworld...

there are the quiliting blogs, sewing blogs, general crafting blogs, photography blogs, family blogs, design blogs, spiritual blogs, ranting blogs...(blog is a weird "word" now).

i was saying that i typically write about zachary and don't usually share anything other that...there are no cute pictures or tutorials for fun crafts i'm working on....just the plain guts of the inner parts of my heart...i share my thoughts when i come to some resolution in my own heart...and that's why my posts are few and far between.

she said, "i'm sure you'll post about your future children".

....and that made me happy....

this blog has been an outlet for me to share the hope i've found after losing Zachary...

my readers, you've followed me when my grief was new...when i was standing in the front line of battle struggling to find some sense of reality after losing Zachary.

you've read about the victory i've found in Jesus...the peace He gives...my ability to rely on Him easier because i've felt the strength of His hands.

you've continued to read as i've struggled with the very personal pain of trying to grow our family...

my blog, just like my life, has gone through different phases...

and i look forward to the next phase to share alongside you.